Hello mate,
The last article which you just commented is the discussion of a TV program in Taiwan. The program, which is originated from a novel called 'White Tower', is about doctors' life in a hospital. The 'white tower' really implies the most outstanding hospital in Taiwan. (The funny thing is that the author was a doctor in the 'white tower', so the theme is very likely based on real stories.)
Since you're not able to read the book or saw the program, I won't talk too much. The thing I wanna arise is that in the book, there are three doctors in the surgery section. One is called 'Su' who is some sort of young doctor; one is called 'Huang' who is the head of the surgery section, very senior, of course; another is called 'Chio' who is the vice head of the section. Su and Huang have different opinions of a surgery. The patient is the president's lovely daughter so that the surgery is not just a surgery, but more about politics (not the politics in general sense, but the politics in the hospital), and they have a serious argument about that. In the end, they fall out, and Huang gives Su a very hard time. It turns out that Su cannot put his surgeries into the schedule because the schedule has to be proved by the Head, which is Huang, and then a patient of Su's is in danger. In one day, Su meets Chio in a changing room. Chio asks Su: Would you go apologise? Su replies NO, and then they have an argument. At last, Chio says something interesting: If your apology could give your patient a chance of being better, why wouldn't you just do it !?
I ask myself, if I were Su, what would I do? Apology might be able to solve the difficulty, but it indicates that you agree his value that your own benefit is superior than your patient's. If you believe this, why would you go apologise to help your patients ?! On the other hand, your patient probably would die because you wouldn't apologise. This violates your value. The situation is a dilemma. Although going apologise is like personality destruction for me, I think I would do it, because I couldn't stand with being alive by sacrificing other people. I ask the same question to Sally, and she said she would go apologise. Becase going apologise doesn't mean you agree his value. ...I understand, but it's very very difficult to me. Because I think the words you spoke out really mean something... I really envy Sally who can speak one thing but believe in different. If I could, I would tell my ex-girlfriend that 'Oh~ Baby~ You are definitely much more important than doing research'.
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